better than you were yesterday.

This prayer from Book of Common Prayer took the exact words from my mouth when I couldn't articulate them clearly enough. 

"Lord, help me now to unclutter my life, to organize myself in the direction of simplicity. Lord, teach me to listen to my heart; teach me to welcome change; instead of fearing it. Lord, I give you these stirrings inside me. I give you my discontent. I give you my restlessness. I give you my despair. I give you all the longings I hold inside. Help me to listen to these signs of change, of growth; help me to listen seriously and follow where they lead through the breathtaking empty space of an open door."

{feeling sick of the human condition and all that comes with it. sick of this entitlement theory I insist of holding tightly to my side. periods of growth and waiting move us toward better things, but right now I'm just feeling the achy side effects of it all. 

grateful God lets us rest in this kind of prayer.}